There's been a shift in the Universe.

For many decades I have tried to maintain a charitable, helpful, kind, and (in the last decade or so) Christ-like attitude and demeanor toward my half-brother, Mitch. I have forgiven him for numerous terrible infractions on his part . . . and tried to be the 'better person' in behavior and spirit.

After wracking my brain over that innane question so many people ask themselves pertaining to their abusers "What did I do wrong? What can I do to fix this?", I have finally awakened. The thing that I have awakened to is this: I did nothing to deserve this treatment and I can do nothing to soothe his demons.

Wow! Once that idea took root I felt completely released from striving to make this relationship work. There is no relationship and he is the one who destroyed it many years ago. . . and he continues to rip down and stomp on any small foundation I attempt to lay. I haven't felt this free in a long time. It's as if the burden is lifted and I am free to walk away -- guilt free.

I guess the most amazing part is that I feel no animosity. I am saddened and sometimes angered by his hateful behavior, but I realize he is controlled by forces outside himself ---- and he doesn't even realize it. Sad for him. Freedom for me. I do not fight other people's demonic influences.

So, for me . . . if any communication needs to be done, my husband will do it. Not me. I feel like I have a force field around me now. He can no longer get to me to harm me.

Thank you, Lord, for the revelation.